Friday, December 10, 2010
I literally cried!
It's been a rough few days. Besides the usual no sleep (which for the most part we've adjusted to because baby boo has been a night owl since day one)and the overwhelming amount of things to get done (School is going to cost me my sanity!)and some other issues I'm not getting into right now...I ended up with some sort of either infection or clogged milk duct or something! Holy crap does that hurt! It still hurts, although I think it is getting better now. My poor breast swelled up to twice its normal size, the veins were protruding and it throbbed with out touching anything (I couldn't even hold Jaden near me)and nursing/pumping litterally made me cry because it hurt so bad!I tried to call the lactation consultant but she wasn't available and after doing some research on my own I just decided to wait it out. I can honestly tell you, I didn't know if I was gonna make it through yesterday! I totally had my first mommy meltdown. Poor baby boo has been gassy and uncomfortable the last few days and mommy hasn't been getting any sleep. Stress has been wearing me down...we both cried. I sat there holding my little monkey and just cried! I hate when I can't console him...it's like my heart is breaking!!! We're better today, but there is still so much to be done! I'm praying for the strength and energy to get through it all this weekend. I have a big project and final exam due next week along with my usual weekly school work. Have I mentioned I'm ready to be done with college? Sadly I have another 2 years to go after this! Wish me luck! :P